Hello
I’m honestly excited to learn about everything! Looking over the program overview, I don’t know what 90% of the modules are but, that’s what’s exciting. I love learning and I was always fascinated with the concept of coding. Part of me also wanted to be a women in stem (lol) but there was fears instilled in me that made me questioned myself on whether or not I had the potential to do it. If I had to narrow it down, I would say graphic design is what catches most of my attention. I’m sure I don’t know exactly what graphic design is, but it makes me think of the way artist promote. Like they must put a lot of thought into their final product. I don’t think this is related but it also makes me think of video edits, which I do on my free time, for show and artist I like.
After this course I want to work in something related to the entertainment industry. I don’t want to say that it’s a for sure thing since we’re still at the beginning of this course. I’m am leaving myself open to see if I fall in love with or become good with something else. Regardless, I believe I should start looking up companies so I can have option on where I want to go. Though, if I’m being honest, I don’t really know where to start.
A barrier I feel like can be challenging for me is my undiagnosed adhd. I have gone to see a therapist and psychiatrist but I feel like mask really well since I only meet with them a short amount of time. Because of that, they seem to not believe me. I also struggle with speak up for myself because I feel like maybe I’m being dramatic and making things up in my head. I guess in a way “everybody is a little adhd,” but it has been a huge problem in my life. I sometimes will get, in a way, obsessed with a hobby I have and I sometimes can’t snap out of it. Like it’s physically hard to do even if my brain is screaming at me to get up and do your responsibilities. And if people interrupt me, I tend to get irritated even thought I don’t want to. I also feel like I have a million thoughts in my head that sometimes being present is hard. The therapist I was seeing had left the facility they were working at so I decided to stop getting service from them and find another place to get a therapist. I am currently working on finding a new therapist; I have an appointment this Wednessday. I have a psychiatrist that has given me meds for my depression, which has helped me immensely, but I feel like he doesn’t believe that I have adhd. I don’t feel herd so after I’ve established my therapist, I want to find a new psychiatrist.
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